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The English word spirit comes from Latin spiritus and means "breath".


The people must had to wonder, seeing a guy at the early morning, dancing just for his self between sleepy children and businesssuites. This guy was me. Just for a minute or two I forgot that I am no longer at the festival, drunk and dancing, between happy people and dancingsuites. I just still followed the spirit.

Almost three years ago, I recognized that something had changed. I had changed. Before I was such a open minded person, friendly and kind even to strangers, but I recognized that my work and my coworkers around me had some cold influence. My attidue and behavior was not as welcome as I thought. So I changed. Unconsciously I followed a cold and silent road, called ruthlessness and egoism. Cause if your are not welcome with your arms wide open, people begin to wear heavy coats of insensitivity to protect their selfs. And this behavior is creating our society. But well, back then, at sometime I recognized my change. So I tried to work against, believing in love and human kindness.

I never really cared about beeing cool, flirt with the ladies and get laid, have great cars and shit. Compared to the most of other young people, I tried to figure out how I feel, how my body and mind works and actually who I am. Do you know who are you? For a long time if I saw myself in a mirror, not checking out how my trousers or my shirt fits, I saw a stranger. A face I actually know but at the same time so foreign. I figured out, that I am not the money I have, not the pants I wear and not the cars I drive. Nothing of them is me. I began to understand a own truth, which says that this what I am able to see, is just a hull, a shape, wich only contains myself. Like a car, working and beeing for its movement. I am the awareness of my feelings, the widsom of my deeds. I am my own weight for a libra or something called like Karma. So I recognized:

Love can only be shared, and wont get less.

But the counterweight to love is pain. Pain can only be added and wont get less, only silent and forgotten. And in my past I caused a lot of pain to other people. Once loved people or people who loved me. I felt and understand that I cant reach inner harmony if this imbalance wont be paid. Also I decided to choose a way love. To get rid of thigs like anger, jealousy, greed, hate, intolerance, etc. And there for I had to understand. And thats another very important thing for me:

We belive more than we know. But for to know we have to understand, and for that we must be able to listen. Even to the quietest things.




So some few days ago, I shared with my best friends the experience of a Rock Festival. And I dont know why, but every moment, every place we entered, everyone me we met and every experience we made, seemed so kinda perfect to me. Full of happiness, joy, and love. Probably there was some kind of own and special magic, maybe caused by the heavy amount of drinks we had, maybe caused by the mentality of the people. But there was it again, with its full and old power - the spirit. I felt so happy and satisfied at all the time.
Money can buy you things like a festival tickets, but happiness is only real when shared.

And now, things really went great for me.
I am really happy with my work and coworkers. I am not causing pain anymore (unconsciously), instead I am trying to create love and good vibes. I feel free and so balanced inside me.

I am having the spirit. I am breathing.
I am alive.